I don't think you understand

Many years I have known you.

We've been through a lot together.

No matter what happens, we always seem to come back to the same place. Which, in reality, isn't such a bad thing.

However, I've expressed to you how I feel. We've talked about it at length. You seemed to understand.

I guess I was wrong.

Please don't misunderstand me. I know your life is pretty good, and I'm happy for you when you are happy. But, there comes a time where a person feels like it's time to give up the ghost. I'm almost there. There will always be that sliver of hope that you'll come around and realize that it's always been you.

I know it probably won't happen, though. I have a reputation as a man-whore, and you have terrible taste in men. Yet, we keep coming back. Neither of us seems to be able to to overcome our faults.

I suppose it's my fault, though. I never really pursued you. I just kept letting you come back, hoping that you'd stay. I should have said something. In fact, I did once. That didn't last long. You found someone else, and went off on your adventures again.

You've been through so much, and I've been there to be your shoulder to cry on, or the person who always supports you no matter what.

I think that I'm just trying to let you know, again, how I feel. I don't want to mess up the good things you have going in your life, so I won't actually say it.

Just know that I still do.