Who is trolling me?

My dentist called me yesterday to confirm an appointment that had been made for me.

Thing is, there was also someone else who had made an appointment for an hour after mine.

They called to confirm that my appointment was at 9 am, and someone whose name is James, but likes to go by Mike, would be right after me. However; they wanted to make sure that he was covered under my insurance.

Wait, what?

I work graveyard shift. I get off of work at 6 am. Having an appointment at 9 am is something I would NEVER do. That, and NOBODY else is covered under my insurance, not even my daughter.

So, I ask them to double check that it was me that made the appointment. The lady said that she wasn't the one that took it. I asked if they had any contact info for the person. She restated that she didn't take the appointment, so she didn't have any info.

Now, this girl, their receptionist, is a really nice person. She's pretty good at her job, and has a wonderful demeanor around the patients. I didn't realize until now that she's a little bit dumb. Just because you didn't take the appointment, it doesn't mean that there isn't any contact info for this person.

You obviously have MY contact info, and I didn't even make the appointment!!!

She figured out that it must be a different Raymond, and they accidentally made an appointment for me. So, they figured it out on their own.

Thing is, I really wanted to go there at 10 am, and see who this "My name is James, but I like to go by Mike" guy is.

I don't think you understand

Many years I have known you.

We've been through a lot together.

No matter what happens, we always seem to come back to the same place. Which, in reality, isn't such a bad thing.

However, I've expressed to you how I feel. We've talked about it at length. You seemed to understand.

I guess I was wrong.

Please don't misunderstand me. I know your life is pretty good, and I'm happy for you when you are happy. But, there comes a time where a person feels like it's time to give up the ghost. I'm almost there. There will always be that sliver of hope that you'll come around and realize that it's always been you.

I know it probably won't happen, though. I have a reputation as a man-whore, and you have terrible taste in men. Yet, we keep coming back. Neither of us seems to be able to to overcome our faults.

I suppose it's my fault, though. I never really pursued you. I just kept letting you come back, hoping that you'd stay. I should have said something. In fact, I did once. That didn't last long. You found someone else, and went off on your adventures again.

You've been through so much, and I've been there to be your shoulder to cry on, or the person who always supports you no matter what.

I think that I'm just trying to let you know, again, how I feel. I don't want to mess up the good things you have going in your life, so I won't actually say it.

Just know that I still do.

Inspirado

 I'm working on this song for karaoke. I hope I can get it right. That's 'baby makin' music'.

I haven't written shit in a week. I kind of feel like a failure at this whole 'writing' thing.

I know, there are those out there that could give me advice on how to write, but I just haven't had much to say. Plus, I keep forgetting the stories I want to write down.

I went to Norwescon. Had fun. Dressed in a kilt the first night, and had a woman put her hand up it to check if I was wearing underwear.  I wasn't. Wore my leopard print PJs the second night. Don't ask me why. People love them.

Visited with one of my oldest friends Wednesday night. Found out she's been dating a new guy. I'm happy for her, but a bit jealous at the same time. Don't ask why. It's too long to explain.

She told me her new guy has a Muslim father and a Mormon mother. Or is it the other way around? Oh well. And, she's a total submissive. I don't understand people who are "kink". Mostly because nobody has really explained it to me. The same with polyamory. I have kind of an idea, but I don't know all the fundamentals.

The past week, it's felt like everything has been going wrong. I try to write, and can't think of anything. I played poker, and didn't (and couldn't) win a hand in 2 1/2 hours. My phone got shut off. That happened because I have a friend on my plan, and she hasn't given me a dime for her portion in 4 months. NONONO, don't think that. She's just had a bad run as well. I'm helping in any way that I can.

Work is ok. I get paid to sit on my ass all night and play on Facebook.

I've cut back smoking by a lot. I have about 8-10 a day now. I use pipe tobacco, and roll them myself. Plus, the fact that I'm not smoking the whole thing helps, as well.

I joined my company's softball team. We practice every weekend for a couple of hours. I can't wait for our first game.

Other than that, I can't really think of anything insightful or interesting to write. Perhaps I'll come up with something later.

I have nothing interesting to say

No. Really. I don't.

I've made this determination.

When I speak, others talk over me. Yes, that's incredibly rude. Yes, it happens all the time. No, they don't know they're doing it.

It just seems that, for what it's worth, what I'm saying at the time has no bearing on the other person's life whatsoever. They just speak over me. And, being the guy that I am, I stop talking and listen.

Is it really that fucking hard? I mean, seriously. I can do it for you. Why can't you just shut your cock-slot for 5 fucking minutes so I can get this little story out of my head? You will never have to hear it again! I promise! But if you don't stop flapping those beef curtains you call lips, you will never hear what I have to say.

Granted, I know you really don't care. I've probably told this story a hundred times. But, you've never heard it. You weren't there. It's gets better by the end! Trust me!

Oh, well. I guess I'll just sit back and be the responsible and appropriate one, why you go on being the inconsiderate fool.

And yet, I am the one who looks foolish for just allowing you to do this. Well, no more. Next time, I'm going to keep telling my story.

And if you give me one dirty look for doing the exact same thing you are doing.... Well, I'm not going to be fazed. I'll just keep on going so you can see what it looks like to be talking to a bag of dicks.

Oh, you'll probably complain at some point. Most likely when it happens the 3rd time or so. You might even ask my why I'm being so rude. At this point, I get to lay into you, and use my brain ninja skills to fuck up your head.

"What do you mean? I wasn't interrupting you!"

"Yes, you were! I was talking, and you just kept saying something..."

Well, now it's apparent that the "Logic Train" doesn't stop in your world. So I'll either let it go, or explain it to you in small words, so as to be easier to understand.

Where are we going so fast? And why are we in this handbasket?

I'm going to rant for a bit. I apologize in advance.

I don't know about any of you, but I see our country slowly becoming a police state.

Our freedoms are slowly being taken away from us, and nobody seems to notice.

It is now legal for you to be strip searched if you are arrested for anything whatsoever. You don't even have to be charged with a crime. The don't even have to suspect you of any wrong doing. The just have to think that, perhaps, you were doing something wrong, can arrest you for it. Take you to the police station, strip search you and hold you for 24 hours.

There's a bill being proposed in the House of Representatives called CISPA. It's a "cyber-security" bill. Basically, it states that any website that has your personal information (facebook, etc.) can go through your personal correspondence, save it, give it to the government for any reason. They can even intercept it, and block it's destination. This is all in the name of "something might happen, so we'd better fix it now." They don't even mention what agency of the Government would handle this traffic. NSA? FBI? CIA? They all have different responsibilities.

Any phone that I have had in the past 13 years has been tapped. This is not paranoia, it's a fact. I had a Top Secret security clearance for the Army for a long time. They listen to make sure I'm not giving away any secrets that I've learned since I joined. Obviously, I'm not, because I don't know any of them. Well, maybe a couple. But, that's a reason to spy on me. I had access. A 14 year old girl in rural Arkansas is not a threat the the Federal Government. Her messages on Facebook really don't need to be forwarded to the NSA. I don't think they give two shits about her problems with her boyfriend.

There are actually people in this country who support Presidential candidates like Mitt Romney and Rick Santorum. Mitt is a con artist, and Rick is a bigot.

Both of these men will make abortion illegal. Now, whether or not you would actually have an abortion is up  to you. But, the option is there. Even in cases of rape or birth defects, they still wouldn't let a woman make their own decision.

 

Mitt Romney is a multi-millionaire who only wants more power and money. He has said things that are completely untrue, then went back and changed them because he got caught in the lie. His poll numbers didn't go down. In fact, they went up! He's been caught bold face lying, apologized, and more people support him? WTF?

Rick Santorum once said, IN PUBLIC mind you, "Homosexuality is a threat to the American Family."

How?

To quote Lewis Black:  "Well, maybe there is a group of 'Gay Banditos', who wander the countryside from village to dell. And slowly, they make their way to that cul-de-sac, where only one house stands. They don their black capes and hoods... and matching pumps (very tasteful), and sneak up to that house. And when they get there, they start FUCKING EACH OTHER IN THE ASS!! And another family is destroyed!"

Makes perfect sense. They just use religion to back up their opinion that is coming purely from a place of hate and fear. I lump Rick Santorum in with the Westboro Baptist Church.

That's right, I said it. Those people are loony. "God hates fags, so we're going to protest military funerals!"

What?

So, the military is gay, and you hate gay people. No? Oh, so, God hates fags and soldiers dying abroad is punishment for this. Yes? That makes no sense. Oh, so, just the soldiers who died are gay. No? I'm having trouble following your message. 

Now, I understand crazy. I'm fluent in it. Some guy talking to himself? I get it. Somebody thinks that I'm on of the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse? Ok, I can see where you're coming from. The problem is, these people seem to try to make logical arguments out of non-nonsensical beliefs. Even Neo Nazis wouldn't get behind their rhetoric. Mostly because Nazis know they're full of hate, and go with it. 

At what point with we, as citizens learn to keep our opinions and beliefs away from other people? I mean, I'm agnositic, pagan, Pastafarian. Those aren't completely my beliefs, but partly. Now, I have friends of a lot of different faiths. Jews, Protestants, Catholics, Christians, Muslims, Buddhists, etc. They're all my friends. The don't judge me because I don't believe the same way they do. According to most religions, I'm going to hell. I guess I am. However, these people don't treat me differently because of that. I'm still here, and I have an effect on their lives, a positive one, at that.

I read this the other day... I'm Christian. Unless you're gay. Very well written, and I agree with it. Not the statement itself, but the message of the article. Just read it, you'll understand. What I found even better, was the response from a 15 year old boy to this article. It's on the same blog HERE. 

Here's my point on this point:

For over 100 years, we've been trying to live up to the Constitution. Civil Rights act of 1875. Civil Rights act of 1964. 14th Amendment. 15th Amendment. Disabilities Act. This is just to name a few. We've almost rid ourselves, as a nation, of racism and sexism. Hell, we even made it so we can't discriminate against sexual orientation when hiring people for a job. Now, they want to ban them being happy? Isn't that a GIANT step backward?

George Zimmerman wasn't immediately arrested. Even though he just killed someone. Don't even get me started. I could go off for days about the racial and sociopolitical implications of that case.

Soldiers in Afghanistan have murdered civilians and EACH OTHER.

After Whitney Houston died, the Governor of New Jersey ordered that all flags on New Jersey public buildings be put at half mast. For a singer. Not a public servant. Not a hero. Not a soldier. Not a former President. A singer that had so many drug problems that 4 different trips to Rehab didn't help. Now, I'm not saying that she was a bad person. I didn't know her. the 15 soldiers that died in a helicopter crash that day barely got any press. It wasn't news worthy because shit like that had been happening for the past 8 years. It's not news anymore. It's not sensational. However, some person who had a singing talent, and died of a drug overdose was more important than soldiers who laid down their lives? I don't think so.

Ok, my rant is at an end. I can't think anymore. I'm going to get a drink. After work.